HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Happy New Year everyone! I hope all of you had a good holiday season! It’s so crazy to think that the holidays have come and gone, and that we are already in a new year.  This past month was so crazy and chaotic. My birthday was the 1st of December, and it felt like as soon as that passed the rest of the month flew by in fast motion.

With a new year here, I have new goals. This past year was honestly one of the worst years I’ve had. I went through a lot of family stuff, and just personal battles that I’m not quite ready to talk about. But with this new year I’m feeling really good! I normally don’t do new years resolution, but this year I’m changing things up and I have created 3 new years resolutions for myself….

         1. Read the Bible from cover to cover

         2. Do BBG from start to finish (full 12 week program)

         3. Make more time for my blog

These are my 3 main goals for the year. They may not be supper exiting or glamorous, but these are personal aspects of my life that I really want to see myself thriving in.

When I read the bible consecutively and really study what I’m reading and take notes, I start to see progress in my relationship with  God. I can see how reading His word and applying it to my everyday life changes the way I look at things. I start seeing changes in how patient I can be, and how calm I am in the middle of a crisis. But the second I start to get lazy or tired I see all the progress I made slowly go to waste and the relationship I worked so hard to build with God slowly start to weaken along with my patients.

I’ve done BBG (Bikini Body Guide by Kayla Itsines) workout program before, and honestly I did see results. The program is 12 weeks long, but I only made it to week 9. My goal this year is to finish BBG and maybe even do BBG stronger. I HATED working out, but after doing Kayla’s program I slowly began to love it. I love the feeling of knowing that I’m taking care of my body and actually getting results.

And finally one of my goals this year is to make more time to blog. I LOVE this blog so much it’s truly my outlet, but I was so busy with school, new years stuff, and the holidays, so I wasn’t really able post a lot, but now that that’s all over I will hopefully have a lot more time to put into the blog and create more posts that will be fun, and helpful for y’all!!

         So stay tuned, 2018 is going to be full of new fun and helpful content! 🙂

2017

Dear 2017,

Wow what a year you were… you broke me down, you shattered me into so many prices, you left me feeling alone, hurt, venerable, damaged.  You showed me sides of myself that I never knew even existed.  You made me feel week and turned my whole world up side down at times. But, with all of that you made me stronger, a fighter, a warrior and most of all you taught me how to forgive, to respect, and to accept myself. You taught me to love the people closest to me even when they hurt me. You taught me to guard my heart and to have faith like I have never had before. You taught me that even through the hardest, most destructive storms, the sun comes out and everything starts to get better. Through the darkest times I was able to see that small light at the end of each trial that gave me hope to keep pushing through.

2017, you are forever going to be engraved into my memory. I will never forget the things I went through this past year, but because of all of it, something much bigger was born. Something greater then I could ever even imagine. You gave me hope. Hope that this next year will be better. That this new year will be full of joy and full of happiness. No matter how hard you hit me I came out stronger, bolder. I took the negativity you handed me, and made it into something positive. When you tore me down, the grace of God built me back up and He mended me.

The lessons you taught me this past year will forever be a part of me. And all thanks to you I found the courage to finally publish this blog and share my life with the world. To be completely honest, I have no idea what this new year holds, but I know who holds it. Whatever 2018 throws at me, I’ll be stronger!

So heres to a new year, a bank page, a fresh start!

 

 

Weekly Devotional

Do you ever feel like God has a specific way of speaking to you? For me it’s through music. I can hear the same song a hundred  times and not really listen but then a part of the song stands out and I feel the voice of God speaking into my heart.

Last September I started my first year of college. I stressed out so much. It was so new to me. I felt like I was studying my butt off but still waste seeing the grades I wanted. I had 4 classes my first quarter and that was probable my first mistake because fresh into college not really knowing what to expect I had a full schedule. I felt like I was drowning. I especially had a hard time in Sociology. Everyone who took it told me how much they loved but when I was taking it I had a completely different experience. I had a horrible teacher. He was rude, and purposefully made the class challenging just because he could. There were so many days when I literally felt like I would just start crying because he made things so hard. I always got really good grade in school, but for some reason no matter how hard I tried all quarter I had a terrible grade in sociology.

  Toward the end of the quarter we had a test that went over all the content we had learned about all quarter. It wasn’t the final because for the final we had a project, but it was worth a lot of points. I studied harder for that test then any other test I’ve ever taken, and yet I got another really low score. As someone who has never gotten a grade lower then a B on anything before I freaked out! I was doing so bad in the class and nothing I was doing was working. I remember driving home one day from school so mad and upset. Everything was irritating me and I just felt like I couldn’t do anything right. Even though I had really good grades in my other classes, I blamed myself for struggling with this one. I just remember driving and talking to God. I was so annoyed at what was happening, that I just wanted to give up. and right in that moment a song came on the radio. The words were:

“If you could only let your guard down
You could learn to trust me somehow
I swear, that I won’t let you go
If you could only let go your doubts
If you could just believe in me now
I swear, that I won’t let you go
I won’t let you go”

I felt like in that moment God was telling me its okay to struggle and to feel like everything is falling apart, but hey I’m here! I realized that I wasn’t relying on God, I was tying to do everything on my own. Instead asking him for help I tried to do it all on my own and failed miserably! One of my favorite verses from proverbs is “Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.” This may be an overly repeated verse but it’s truly so meaningful!

The moment I let God take over I actually did start doing better and I had peace in my heart that even though things might not be going completely as planned at the end of the day I was okay with whatever happened because God was in control! I was able to pass my class with a pretty good grade. But I couldn’t do it alone. Trusting that God will take care of our situation whatever it may be is SO HARD! But when you do, you feel so free. Don’t hesitate to ask God for help. He is always there no matter what your issue is he is always going to be there for you!

 

Hello FALL!

For some people fall is the best time of year. Something about the temperature dropping, trees turning colors, the leaves falling and the nonstop rain warms their hearts and puts a smile on their face. I am not one of those people. I love summer, my iced coffee, my sunnies, driving with rolled down windows in the evening feeling that warm breeze between your fingers as you let your arm sway out of the window driving into the summer sunset. But all good things come to an end. As sweet as summer was it is now time to welcome fall.

                               

Normally I get so depressed when fall rolls around just because I know that with it comes school and more responsibilities that you kind of just forget about. Summer for me is a time when I forget about everything and just live in the moment. Nothing else matters to me because I don’t really have anything to worry about. But once fall rolls around, everything goes back to normal and I’m in school, Sunday school, planning my work hours around school and planning my days around homework due dates. I find myself exhausted by 8:30 pm. The days get shorter, colder, gloomier, and a lot busier.

         

I always hung on to every last bit of summer I could hold onto. Every year I postponed taking out my sweaters and boots and putting my shorts and sandals away till the very last second that I could. It’s such a hard transition for me. I am not someone who likes change. I need everything to stay the same. when things start to change I feel a cloud of sadness and anxiety lingering over me. But not this year. This summer had some major hi-lights, but a lot more low-lights. So many negative things happen. Even though I had so much family in town, a house full of people who loved me and I loved so much, I felt so alone. I went through a phase where I was constantly feeling so down. In the beginning of summer I got some really bad news that left me  Feeling frigid inside. Like I had something so heavy on my chest. It was so hard for me to get on my knees everyday and pray. Or even open up my bible. After feeling like this for a while I opened up to a friend and told her about my situation and I left that conversation feeling worse than I was before. I felt so confused and  lost.

In that moment I realized that it didn’t madder what season it was, or who I talked to, what I really needed was God. No matter how hard it was I got myself to open my bible and pray about my situation and I tried putting everything in God’s hands as best as I could and let him guid me through everything. I felt so weak, so exposed and empty. It was the hardest thing I’ve gone through. But opening my bible my prayer was simple, but effective. It was so that I can find peace in my heart and for him to settle my sole. I was so tied of feeling empty and carrying this heavy burden around with me for so long, and in that moment a thought came into my head to open up to the book of Job. I began reading the book of Job and sure enough I did get that encouragement I was looking for.  After reading just the first 3 chapters I was reminded that my problems are so small and that God is so Great. He is so loving and so caring. he was able to take my brokenness and turn it into something good. This summer may have been difficult and I may have cried more tears than we had rain, but that’s okay. We all go through rough seasons in our lives and difficult times, but it’s the lessons that we learn from these times that make up who we are. the changes we go through might not be the easiest, but God gives us strength to keep pushing through and to rely on his guidance. Even though I’m not a fan of change, I know that it is good for me.

    

This Year I am looking forward to fall. It’s a new season, new beginning, and a fresh start. The worst is behind me, and the best is yet to come. This year I am actually looking forward to sweaters, boots and raincoats. As hard as it is for me to say but I am ready for gloomy fall days and it raining non stop here in the PNW. I never really did any exiting fall things in the past because I hated fall. But this year I decided to try something new. I went to the pumpkin patch and I enjoyed it so much. I even found a pink pumpkin!

                         

I had fun getting lost in corn maze and drinking fresh apple cider. The pumpkin patch we went to was so beautiful and had so may different activities. there was petting animals, a Christmas tree farm, and they even offered hay rides. There was even a pumpkin cannon which I am still so bummed that I  didn’t get to try. All these activities and more were all included in a really affordable price. The place is called Schilter Family Farm, in Olympia WA. If you’re in the area you have to checkout out it is amazing!

                         

 The arrival of fall also means the holidays are creeping up fast and boy do I love the holidays. Change sucks and it’s hard, but even though it is hard to accept it, but in the end there is always light at the end of the tunnel!

                                           

I hope that you enjoyed my post and that you found encouragement in some way!! Thanks for reading💛

 

WHY START THIS BLOG?

Writing this is such a surreal moment for me. I’ve toyed with the idea of a blog for years. I remember when I came across a food recipe blog for the first time and I began thinking about  starting my own blog about my life and share my experiences with people. Little did I know that already existed, and was becoming very common. The older I got, the more bloggers I started following and over time that began fueling the fire to start my own blog.  It became a passion of mine and I wanted to pursue it, but wasn’t sure if it was truly for me, but the more I thought about it, the more I knew I just had to do it. It wasn’t a hard decision because I already knew what I wanted to share with my audience and what I wanted to focus on through this blog. I can’t wait to share my ideas and experiences, and am looking forward to learning more about all of you!!

Thank you for visiting, I really do hope the content on this blog will have you craving more!