For some people fall is the best time of year. Something about the temperature dropping, trees turning colors, the leaves falling and the nonstop rain warms their hearts and puts a smile on their face. I am not one of those people. I love summer, my iced coffee, my sunnies, driving with rolled down windows in the evening feeling that warm breeze between your fingers as you let your arm sway out of the window driving into the summer sunset. But all good things come to an end. As sweet as summer was it is now time to welcome fall.
Normally I get so depressed when fall rolls around just because I know that with it comes school and more responsibilities that you kind of just forget about. Summer for me is a time when I forget about everything and just live in the moment. Nothing else matters to me because I don’t really have anything to worry about. But once fall rolls around, everything goes back to normal and I’m in school, Sunday school, planning my work hours around school and planning my days around homework due dates. I find myself exhausted by 8:30 pm. The days get shorter, colder, gloomier, and a lot busier.
I always hung on to every last bit of summer I could hold onto. Every year I postponed taking out my sweaters and boots and putting my shorts and sandals away till the very last second that I could. It’s such a hard transition for me. I am not someone who likes change. I need everything to stay the same. when things start to change I feel a cloud of sadness and anxiety lingering over me. But not this year. This summer had some major hi-lights, but a lot more low-lights. So many negative things happen. Even though I had so much family in town, a house full of people who loved me and I loved so much, I felt so alone. I went through a phase where I was constantly feeling so down. In the beginning of summer I got some really bad news that left me Feeling frigid inside. Like I had something so heavy on my chest. It was so hard for me to get on my knees everyday and pray. Or even open up my bible. After feeling like this for a while I opened up to a friend and told her about my situation and I left that conversation feeling worse than I was before. I felt so confused and lost.
In that moment I realized that it didn’t madder what season it was, or who I talked to, what I really needed was God. No matter how hard it was I got myself to open my bible and pray about my situation and I tried putting everything in God’s hands as best as I could and let him guid me through everything. I felt so weak, so exposed and empty. It was the hardest thing I’ve gone through. But opening my bible my prayer was simple, but effective. It was so that I can find peace in my heart and for him to settle my sole. I was so tied of feeling empty and carrying this heavy burden around with me for so long, and in that moment a thought came into my head to open up to the book of Job. I began reading the book of Job and sure enough I did get that encouragement I was looking for. After reading just the first 3 chapters I was reminded that my problems are so small and that God is so Great. He is so loving and so caring. he was able to take my brokenness and turn it into something good. This summer may have been difficult and I may have cried more tears than we had rain, but that’s okay. We all go through rough seasons in our lives and difficult times, but it’s the lessons that we learn from these times that make up who we are. the changes we go through might not be the easiest, but God gives us strength to keep pushing through and to rely on his guidance. Even though I’m not a fan of change, I know that it is good for me.
This Year I am looking forward to fall. It’s a new season, new beginning, and a fresh start. The worst is behind me, and the best is yet to come. This year I am actually looking forward to sweaters, boots and raincoats. As hard as it is for me to say but I am ready for gloomy fall days and it raining non stop here in the PNW. I never really did any exiting fall things in the past because I hated fall. But this year I decided to try something new. I went to the pumpkin patch and I enjoyed it so much. I even found a pink pumpkin!
I had fun getting lost in corn maze and drinking fresh apple cider. The pumpkin patch we went to was so beautiful and had so may different activities. there was petting animals, a Christmas tree farm, and they even offered hay rides. There was even a pumpkin cannon which I am still so bummed that I didn’t get to try. All these activities and more were all included in a really affordable price. The place is called Schilter Family Farm, in Olympia WA. If you’re in the area you have to checkout out it is amazing!
The arrival of fall also means the holidays are creeping up fast and boy do I love the holidays. Change sucks and it’s hard, but even though it is hard to accept it, but in the end there is always light at the end of the tunnel!
I hope that you enjoyed my post and that you found encouragement in some way!! Thanks for reading💛